Setting new goals...

I didn't want to verbalize my goals because I would be held accountable to them and I didn't know if I would have time to accomplish all that I want to do....thus the state I am in (starting {to never return} at 244.5 pounds). I committed to counting points this week and did well but didn't really break my back in sweating activities. I walked one mile (in one week) and played the Wii for a total of about 30 minutes each day. I want to do better this week so I feel better.

Here come the "I's"...

I want to do better so my husband will want to look at me and appreciate me.
I want to do better so I can play with Kaden.
I want to run and chase him without making a scene and feel like my heart is going to beat out of my chest.
I want to wear my husbands clothes (t-shirts).
I want to be out of the plus size.
I want to fit in the chairs at the movies and in air planes more comfortably.
I want to sit in a chair or swing and not have to worry about the weight restrictions.
I want to bend over and tie my shoes without holding my breath.
I want to sit and not have to rest my belly on my legs.
I want to feel better so I can take care of my family and self the way I know I can.
I want to take make beautiful again the body God blessed me with so I can love and appreciate me again.

Through teared eyes it's hard for me to write this. I say that I want these things, but I continue to put food in my mouth that I don't need. I eat until I am totally uncomfortable and drink sweet tea or dr.pepper's until I am so high on sugar I want to just sleep. I am making a change. I don't want to be the mother that is so healthy that I can't enjoy good food, however I do want to enjoy good food not consume it.

These are my goals. I have had a few of these hanging on my mirror with a weight of 254 since March. I know I can loose the weight. I know I can make better choices. I know I am capable of doing whatever I set my mind to....not only was I taught that my whole life but I am reminded of it throughout the Bible.

My goal this week is to get up every morning and go to Aspen (which I have been paying for the last year) and use the stair climber for 40 minutes. My goal will be accomplished only if I do this Monday through Friday. In the afternoons (when I don't work) my goal is to use the Wii or Walk Away the Pounds.

There, now I am committing myself to these goals and since I have shared them with you, I can't get out of them.


(Monday morning update from Andrea)
By the way, I went and worked out this morning! I sweat myself silly! It felt good. It is snowing here like the dickens. Anyway, I came home and weighted on the Wii and since last Monday (starting weight of 244.7) I am down 4.2 pounds...that's right, I weigh 240.5!!

I can do this!