Down a Bit...

I have been stuck at 151 for weeks, so last week I decided that I would stop eating my nightly snack. I love to snack late at night. I am probably more tired than hungry but peanut butter and honey sure tastes good at 11pm. I stuck to my goal (only cheated once or twice) and I lost a pound. I am slowly getting closer to my goal. This week I am trying to cut back the snacks I eat during the day. I will let you know how it goes.

Yum...

Pappadeaux last night, Wings-n-More tonight.  Yum.........

Yum...

Pappadeaux last night, Wings-n-More tonight.  Yum.........

mono y mono

What I thought was the flu is only MONO! What, a virus most high school kids get has made a showing and it is an ugly face. I have never been this lethargic in all my life. I want to stay in bed, I want to eat nothing, I hurt from head to toe...literally. Lyneil has been super woman and should be burning her calories as well as mine as many times as she has been down and up the stairs and taking care of business.



Well, with all the drama (or lack there of around here), I seemed to loose 6 pounds. That puts me 7.3 pounds away from my goal. How I would not recommend this version of weight loss to ANYONE, I am getting closer to my goal.



Y'all pray the rest of the people in this house steer clear of this nasty virus.

Woo Hoo!

I don't like to brag or get all excited about stuff, because it seems when I do something happens to humble me, but I'm gonna go ahead.  I lost 2.2 pounds!  Woo Hoo!  What did I do?  I actually tried...and it worked.  I'm also noticing that my jeans (pre-baby) fit better, and my thighs don't rub together anymore (an annoying little problem that started around 7 months pregnant).  So, keep it up, you can do it!  

3 weeks to go

Put the sweets away! Keep on the exercise and the better portions! I want to go to there.

Down another pound. . . 216. . . . . That makes 10 from my beginning! But, I didn't work out at all this week. It was tough. This week will be better on working out. My eating is . . . on my mind now more that before. I have to keep it in my points and make sure that I don't take too many liberties as I am acostomed to doing!!! Cheese? Ashley, how are ya?

Better week

So I went to the doctor today and she wants to do a MRI. I asked if we could wait a little while longer to see if it would get better because I do not want to go through another surgery right now. She gave me 14 days of steroids and I have to go back in 4 weeks, if it is not better by then, then on to the MRI I go. I am nervous, scared, and hopeful. We will see what happens.
I did lost 3.6 ponds this week!!! I know that some of that is the 1.8 the scale said I gained last week that I could not explain but I will take it. I am not able to workout right now because it just hurts so I am counting my points and making the best of the situation I am in. I am praying for God's healing. Praying for the knowledge to make the best decisions for me and my family.
It is hard to ask for healing when there are others out there hurting worse than I am.
But, overall a good week!

So what does it matter if you splurge here and there?

A ton!

This is Jorge again...

Previously this was my progress:
Jan 22nd Jan 30th
Weight 346.0 lbs 343.2 lbs
BMI 45.7 45.3
Fat% 37.1% 34.9%
Fat Mass 128.4 lbs 119.8 lbs
Fat Free Mass 217.6 lbs 223.4 lbs

Goal weight by reunion: 315 lbs

Now:
Feb 16th
Weight 344.0 lbs
BMI 45.4
Fat% 39.2%
Fat Mass 134.8 lbs
Fat Free Mass 209.2 lbs

So I only gained 0.8 pounds overall after eating bad via the Superbowl, Week before the Week before my Birthday, Week before my Birthday, and then my Birthday. Did I ENJOY all that food ENOUGH to appreciate that I GAINED 15 POUNDS OF FAT and LOST 14.2 POUNDS OF MUSCLE?! *$%&@ NO!!! Did I get it through my head that I was one of the fortunate people on this earth that didn't have to worry about having food the next day? NO! So I botched it all up and I feel like a complete idiot. I did this to myself and thought I was getting off pretty since I was around the same ballpark in weight. Well, what lies beneath tells the true story and now I am looking at the Reunion as a further and further goal. So what?! Now I have to accept these numbers and have to depend on you all to keep me in line. I hid behind not "posting" hoping that my numbers would not be that bad. I paid the price. I can't believe all the time I "waisted" but now I need to be focused. I will be back on the train. I will make my "hour of power" a top priority. I had some weeks where I only worked out twice. Who was I fooling? My resolve must be stronger if I really want to prove that my life is more important than food. I appologize to you all because I know you all want me to do well. Maybe I am not the only one that has "hid" but that makes it no less a sin. This is a struggle that I must fight and win. This is my time and all I am doing is delaying it. I will bring home better numbers next time. Hold me to it.

How Is It Going?

Jorge is right, now is the time to be blogging more, not giving up!  I have given up the past two weeks, but am on my way to being back on track and more focused than ever.  So, what I would like us to do is to post our current status:  Pounds lost total, pounds to go, whatever else you want to post.  We haven't heard from Pam or Ashley in a while...I know it's hard for y'all to post because of lack of internet access, so let one of us know and we will post for you. 

My current status Goal

Height:  5'5'' Can't really change this one!

Weight:  155 140

Waist Cir.:  35 in. 32 in.

BMI:  25.8 23.3

Total weight lost since we started this blog:  A big fat ZERO pounds.  No gain, though, so that's good!

Lyneil, you can make me a ticker if you want!

Procrastination

As Jorge said in one of his comments, we have one month left...keep it going!  This is good news for me, as I am a huge procrastinator.  Now that there is a short time left, I'm actually thinking about getting myself in gear.  I can do stuff when I think short term, long term wears me out!  Just think, four more weeks of eating right, exercising, all that good stuff.  If you're not losing (like me) take your routine to the next level.  It's just four weeks!  Then, when the four weeks is over, you can re-evaluate and keep it up or readjust.  Also, I know many of our birthdays are coming up.  Don't go crazy, but have some cake and a good dinner.  It won't kill you.  Just don't let one happy bday meal turn into a week long celebration!

rebellion

Sorry, I was trying to blog with my iPhone in a barn, with a crying baby.  It didn't work.  I have rebelled against weight loss the past few weeks, but I'm getting back on track.  Jorge-Happy Birthday a day early!  I give you permission to eat some good stuff tomorrow.

Rough Week

To say I was not feeling it this week would be an understatement but I am plugging right along anyway. I weighted in yesterday morning and was up 1.8 pounds. I was shocked. While I was not looking to lose a lot of weight I did not expect to have such a large gain. I know by body will kick in and help me some time but I would like to think it should be a little more often than it does.
I stayed within my points last week and even left 15 of my extra points on the table. So, I really can not explain the gain but I know that if I keep working it will come off. So, that is what I am going to do - keep working.
My back is still giving me trouble so I made an appointment to see the doctor next Thursday. I don't know what to expect but I guess I will get the process started and see where it leads.
Still plugging on!

I'm down a pound! 217. Still kickin'.

Ironic!

I'm sitting in the doctor's waiting room right now just as I sat in 1999 and I'm working on puppet scripts. . . just as I was in 1999. . . I'm waiting for the next blood draw . .. just as I did in 1999. What have I changed in 10 years and kept up with? Puppets! Not my body, that's for sure. How did I miss all of that time? I was really busy and I still am. How do I make my body do things that my doctor says is really hard for my body to do with this stupid disease? I'm really mad and frustrated. Hurt. I want to yell out stupid stupid stupid and more stupid at fat or whatever else gets in my way. : ( Bummer! I'll be cheery later. Just feelin' kinda sucky righ now!

Motivation, Anyone?

So...how do you motivate yourself to eat better?  I know how to eat healthy, all about portion control and good foods vs. bad foods, what I don't know is how to change my mind to go for the good instead of the bad.  Like Page and Amy are saying, I think its a habit that is in you, and I'm not so great at changing habits.  I've been working out everyday, doing good with that.  I can tell my body is changing, but I'm not losing weight.  It's because I still eat horribly.  On biggest loser the other night the trainers were saying that whole "I've gained muscle, that's why I haven't lost any weight" and "I've lost inches even if I haven't lost weight" thing is just an excuse designed to make us feel better about the fact that we didn't give it our all.  I thought about that and while I don't totally agree - we can look at Jorge's numbers and see that he's losing fat and gaining muscle - I do agree that if we aren't losing the weight we want to, we aren't doing something right.  First, I think its important to evaluate our goals to see if they are realistic.  More than 2 pounds a week really isn't.  Then I think we need to see how many calories we are actually eating each day and how many we actually need.  There are tons of places on the internet where you can do this, and if you have an iPhone or iPod touch you can download an app called "Fit Now" that does it all for you.  And it's free.  Anyways, I'm not controlling my food, and even though I'm exercising every day for at least an hour, I'm not losing weight.  I may be gaining some muscle, but until I start to control my eating better, nothing is going to happen!   Exercise alone can't do it.  To lose a pound a week, you have to burn about 3,500 more calories than you consume.  Most exercise burns 300-400 calories in one hour.  If I did that every day for a week, I've only burned 2800 calories, not enough to lose a pound.  So, if you've got tips, ideas, or personal stories about how to get motivated to eat better and less, let me know!

Super Bowl Super Supper!

Ummm, (insert guilty face here) ummm! I have lost NO wieght this week. I have gained no weight this week. I feel like I've slipped a bit on my eating. My exercising has been sweaty, consistant, and one hour long at least three times a week. But, seriously. . . do the math. If I'm burning 650 plus calories just working out. . . and other calories with daily life. . . . how many am I inhailing to keep my current weight and not loose? It's just not pretty. Jorge and I bought our salad mix again at Sams and we're both ready to get back on the food and do it right again. At least the exercise hasn't waivered.

Page, thanks for sharing. I knew that It would help all of us. It's amazing how quickly attitudes and habits can form. And. . . where they are born. That's another reason Jorge and I want to get fit and have a better handle on our bodies before we have kids. I know we'll have lots more body struggles after. . . but, to be fit before will help so much!

Way to go Neil and Andra.

We are eating out every night...

Well, I am in Moline with Karl this week. That's right. I left all of our DsM family and responsibilities to Neil...and headed east. We have eaten out every night this week. I do well in the hotel room. We have continental breakfast and that's not so bad. This morning there was no milk and I had half of a biscuit covered with sausage gravy...otherwise, I have really done well. Every meal that Karl and I have had out we have ordered one plate and split and boy is that helping. I am taking in more calories than I would like, but we are doing ok. Guess we'll see next Monday.

I dropped the 3.2 pounds plus another .5 pound this last week. I don't know what happened to me last week, but I am back on track and my body is being nicer to me for it.

Down 3.7 pounds!

Kaden and I have been swimming 2-3 times a day and we are both loving it. I have not worked out as much as I need to so I hope my eating habits keep me on track. It has been nice not having things to munch on here. I literally only have three meals a day without the snacks. I needed to see that I can live without snacking....who would have thought!

We're doing well and hopefully I'll be down some more next Monday's weigh in!

Andrea

Week 3

Well today started a new week for me. It started with a weigh in at WW and a 2.4 pound loss. I was glad to see that there was a loss this week.
I have not been working out. The past week has brought about a pain in my back that extends down my leg. I am going to give it another week before I go to the doctor. I am afraid of what is going on and choose to be in dinial at this point . . . but I digress.
I was happy with my 2.4 pounds and I will continue on my WW and do what exercise my body will allow me to do.
I may be down but I am not out!
Ashley - I will make you a ticker if you can give me your begin weight, current weight, height and goal weight

Pounds Lost??

Zero for me this week.  Anxiously waiting to hear about everyone else!!!

Page's Post

Well, I spoke to Amy and she asked me to contribute to the blog since I do so well! Well I am here to tell you that I don't do so well. If you consider a having a bad body image and a low self-esteem doing good, then I am doing great. I am working on my body image and self-esteem but I still have a long ways to go. Since you all have been so open and honest, and I've taken this off my personal website, then I guess it is time for me to share. 

Growing up my mom was ALWAYS on a diet. She was always trying to lose weight, trying to look better, etc. I have to give her credit for teaching me to at least eat healthy food, but she didn't teach me anything about loving the body that God gave me. Now that I look back, I can see that she didn't know how to love her self and didn't realize what a wonderful mother God had made her. I also know now, that she had several friends that struggled with eating disorders so she was surrounded by women that hated their bodies. 

With all that said, I was always the fat kid growing up. I was one of, if not, the biggest girls in my class until the eight grade. I can remember going swimming when I was in the seventh grade and hearing one of the guys yell “Free Willy,” as I jumped off the high dive. That was the last time I ever jumped off the high dive. I can remember my mom telling me that if stopped drinking cokes and eating candy, I could lose some weight. Once I started athletics, I dropped the pounds and started to get attention from some not so nice guys. All this led me down a path that I truly regret today. I had no self esteem; I thought I was fat, very ugly, and unworthy. I also spent four years in a relationship with a guy that was emotionally abusive. Telling me any chance he had that I was a little chubby, you better not eat that, no one else will ever want you, etc…… 

So, leaving high school I had a very horrible relationship with food. I ate when I was sad, mad, scared, happy, lonely, depressed, or just bored. I didn’t eat to feed my body. I ate to avoid facing my emotional scars. My emotional eating led to binging and purging. I would eat, and eat, and eat until I could stand it. And then……..you know the rest of the story. I did this for several years off and on. During this time, I watched my sister struggle with her own eating issues and felt helpless. I didn’t know how to help because I was so lost in my own problems. I was dating Lane and we were working on building my self-esteem. I say we, because he was my life saver. He helped show me that God made me beautiful and made me for a purpose. 

Today, I can proudly say that I love myself for who I am. God me special, He made me unique, He made me for a purpose, He made ME. I still find myself looking at other women and wondering how they can be so skinny. Why can’t I lose this last 10 lbs? If only I was a little smaller, I would look so much better. These thoughts enter my mind often and I have to stop and pray. I have to start counting my blessings and refocus. I have to remember what is important. Before we started having children I prayed for all boys. I didn’t want girls. I didn’t want them to go through all the struggles I went through. I didn’t want them to face this mean and ugly world. Well, God had different plans. Plans that included 3 beautiful little girls. 

My goal is to be a Godly woman that my girls can look up to. I want them to see me taking care of my body. Not someone who is always dieting, comparing myself to others, or putting myself down. I want to be healthy. I exercise because it makes me feel better. I like to eat fruits and veggies because they make me feel good. I hate the way I feel after I eat a real fatty meal. I feel sluggish, sleepy, and gross. I currently weigh 151 lb and would like to weigh 140 lb. I am nursing so I can’t cut calories but I can exercise and make good choices. Just this morning, I was putting myself down because I still can’t wear my old jeans. Then at church, one of the ladies told me that I was looking really good. Isn’t God great! He knows my struggles and is always encouraging. Thanks for letting me share.

I figured out my problem...

I never thought I was an emotional eater.  I don't eat a ton when I am happy, and when I'm sad or depressed I don't want to eat at all.  But I have figured out this week that I eat - lots and lots of junk - when I'm stressed.  I've been stressed out this week for the first time in a long time and I've had a field day with girl scout cookies, snickers, burgers and fries, and yes...Dr. Peppers.  I haven't had a DP since my blog rant months ago, but I had four this past week...and guiltily I am about to have another - my farewell Dr. Pepper.  Any ideas how to combat this?

Also, here is my challenge for this week.  I challenge everyone (including me) to work out 5 minutes more than you normally do each day.  So, if you work out 30 minutes, do 35.  If you don't work out at all, then just do 5 minutes of some sort of exercise each day.  Let's see if pushing ourselves just a little harder has any effect!!